This is part of my Songbook series…unfinished tracks right out of my songbook, as they’re written, to document the journey from concept to album track in my next CD.
As with so many other songs, apparently for me, this one had it’s beginnings on the riding lawnmower. I was thinking “I really hate doing this” “There are so many better things I could be doing with me life right now.” etc.
So of course I turned it into a reflective exercise as I am wont to do “So why do I do this? Why do I care what my lawn looks like?” “I don’t, but Jenn does, and the boys need a nice place to play.” Which of course got me thinking about all those other things I do for them…all the long hours at work, the fixing, repairing, remodeling stuff around the house, the work, the silly songs and books and games and, of course…the ever present work. Why do I do it? Why does anyone do it? The simple answer…because they love their family and want them to be happy. The end.
Taking the next logical leap I thought…”now how often do I tell them that vs. how often do I just complain about how hard my day was?” The ratio was not in my favor. I also saw this Top 5 Regrets of the Dying
1. I wish I’d had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.
2. I wish I hadn’t worked so hard.
3. I wish I’d had the courage to express my feelings.
4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.
5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.
So nobody said “I wish I had worked harder and complained more?” Hmm… well….this song is my attempt at counteracting my own impulses and addressing Regrets #3 and #5. It’s a start anyways.
Here are the lyrics:
I’m a lucky man, I can’t count on my hands
all the times I felt really loved
or the times you’ve closed your eyes with your hand in mine
all the things good songs are made of
My child, my wife, you’re my reason for life
you’re my lighthouse on the shore
It would take a thousand years to tell you how sweet life is
to say it right would take a thousand more
Like the waves out on the ocean
Like the morning chasing night into the west
Like the starlight burning through darkness
My love for you will never rest
We try to make it last, but the years go by fast
I wanna make sure I don’t miss the chance
to tell you dears how you made my years
the best a man can have
There will come a day when I can’t kiss your face
because my heart’s asleep in my chest
Don’t you feel afraid, just know that sunshine or rain
my love for you will never rest.